Kicked out of massage school. š¤
Updated: Jan 31, 2022
Iāve started and stopped writing this blog three times. I guess for some reason I just cannot find the words to describe the way Iām feeling. So, this may sound like a ramble, but itās because Iām hurt and venting. On Wednesday last week, Terry, one of the administrators at The Healing Arts Center located in St.Louis, Mo. called to tell me that Iād been terminated from the school because of āwhat I do outside for work.ā She went on to say the work I do is illegal (itās how she said it yawll, with such assurance), and that it went against the school's code of conduct. She asked me if I had anything to say as if at that moment I was supposed to plead and beg or lie to keep my spot as a student. Yea I got something to say, Ms. Terry, the work I do IS NOT ILLEGAL. You wouldnāt begin to understand the lives that I help, the sexual trauma that I heal. I help MANY connect with their bodies again, through sensual erotic touch. So I get what youāre saying, you think itās prostitution and it goes against what you all are about. But I would like to let you know youāre wrong. And itās YOUR loss. She went on to say, okay, and the call ended.
Quiet as itās kept, Terry aināt been touched in a decade. Donāt ask me how I know.
Many would say, well Nikki you already know rejection is redirection and I would agree. But if I didnāt sit in the pain of being rejected yet again, Iād be doing myself a disservice. I had plans for this license. Many of you know I LOVE Miami and itās my goal and dream to be a resident really soon. The licensure would help open an authorized studio in south beach. I saw it, I've been visualizing it, and soon I wouldāve made it my reality. Everything I do is strategic, so it hurts because my plan A didnāt work. It hurts because I was learning a lot! As mad as I am at this school and its policies I canāt deny that Tom Tessuere the owner and headmaster was a wealth of knowledge. I loved his teaching style, I loved learning the basics about what it is I do best. Every time I learned something new I would apply it to a client immediately. There is no denying that Iām already AMAZING at what I do, not to sound cocky, it is what it is. I just believe you can never stop learning, thereās always more to know. And I absolutely felt at home every time I was in class. So yea, itās a loss and it hurts. I had to cancel my clients this weekend just so I could sit in my shit. Itās so easy to feel like itās YOU when someone rejects you. I know that isnāt the case but that's how I felt this weekend. So now that Iāve had time to digress I feel like I can finally let this shit go and move on.